Lady Complex // Living Faithful to the Unfaithful

Written by Lady Complex /// Find in Love, Sex, Etc

Around this time every year, I always say to myself "If he doesn't get that divorce by the end of the year, I'm gone." Well, it's been 3 years and I haven't gone anywhere. It's no secret to anyone (including the wife), that we are living somewhat "happily" together for the last year and a half. So, if I know it won't work, what am I holding on to?

Time? I guess. But, then again time waits for no one. I've dealt with everything possible in relationships, so time may be the only hope I am holding on to. Not so fair when most of the time invested came from me. Sex? Possibly.  He does know how to treat a girl. Granted that he is a good man, there was once a time I believed that he could be the one. Hell, who am I fooling? I still believe it sometimes. Pillow talk, a nice dinner, a sweet and tender kiss often seals the deal. But come morning, it's back to normal. I love him with every bone in my body and my care for him runs deeper than the ocean. Maybe that's what gets in the way. I don't like to see him hurt and I know leaving him now, would leave him distraught.

I let him go, I take him back. My fault, I know. But, what's a girl who has never been single before to do? With that being said, I guess I answered my own question. I am too afraid of being lonely, even if it means me being unhappy- for a moment. So, instead, I'll stay faithful to the unfaithful until the shoe is on the other foot. By then, it may end up as being unfaithful to the unfaithful and it may as well be over at that time.


Signed,

Lady Complex
Writer/ Lifestyle Blogger
www.myladycomplex.com